I really need to find a job.
Ugh.. its been a year though, and Im so used to NOT working now. I really dont want to go back.
Plus, I feel like I'm kinda stuck.. I kinda dont want to go back to working at a salon... especially cuz I feel like I've invested so much time "training" as an assistant.. now do I really want to do it all over again at another salon? Reason for me saying all over again.. is the 1st 2 yrs I assisted & was on the floor partime doing cuts & color.. I was still learning. I still had help formulating. Then when I invested 2 more years at another salon in San Francisco.. it was ONLY for haircutting. Now that I'm back in the east bay, I really dont want to do the commute back to SF and since researching salons on this side of the bay, Ive noticed most salons DONT specialize in color or cut.. most do both. Also Ive noticed a lot of salons rent chairs out rather than offer commission. .... Yea I know the basics of color, but I wouldnt feel confident enough to just go on the floor and start coloring & highlighting away. I feel like I need more education on that.. but where am I to get it.. without spending 92837492374 dollars on classes... or assisting ... again. Do I really want to do another year or 2 again.. for minimum wage... might I add which is like 1-2 dollars less than what is paid in SF.
Even if I was to give in and assist again.. then I start thinkin about my future. Darin & I want to have kids within the next 2 years. So lets say I did assist & it did take me 1-2 yrs to finally get on the floor.. now what if I got pregnant? Then I go on maternity leave.. and lose whatever small clientele I built up?? Then when I go back to work, I'll be back to square 1 it seems.
Then I start thinking about maybe exploring into baking & pastry since I did originally go to school for that... eh.. its a thought, but I'm not sure if I'd really enjoy it.
Then I start thinking about maybe a makeup counter... ehh.. but then its retail hours. I really would like a job with a set schedule. Not knowing when & what days I'll work til the next weeks schedule comes out isn't something I really want to put up with.
Then I start thinking about an office job.. it might pay a lot better.. but then what about my hair? My makeup? Wear wigs to work? Theres no way I'm going to just go black after working so hard to get my hair to pink! lol.
And then I think, what if I did go into these other options.. then what would happen to hair? I know I'd miss it. I know there's still more I want to learn.. but is it even worth it?
I dont know.
I really need to figure out what I'm going to do.
Maybe I'm looking too much into it? ... but isnt that what you have to do when you have a future.. when its not just single you anymore??
I wish I could have a job in which I just look at pretty vintage things, find them & resell them... without using my own money. haha. i wish.